Top: Wadi In Erahar, left by the nomads in 1969
Middle and bottom: new farm in the Wadi Berjuj
The valley is changing and blooming after the 1969 Revolution. After centuries of barrenness with just a few wild-pear trees. My mother carried in her all the love for the old valley; the desappearance of a wild tree made her sad. When the new farmers moved in and changed the face of the valley it filled her with fear. The divorce of a newly rich man from his aged wife is a disaster that is a topic of conversation for months.
The valley has changed with agricultural reforms. The valley has changed its skin; the old people become older, and more and more puzzled every day; what has appened to the valley? The old men and old women stare silently at the tractors that are clearing land for the new farms. They are chewing-over their old memories of life in the past.
My mother does not know that life is a mill going round and round, non-stop. She does not unterstand that the past is not necessarily glorious or attractive. She does not understand that the schools which are taking the place of mounds of sand and weeds will teach the children the alphabet of a right life. My mother does not understand that the valley will become schools; dams of water, and a green landscape. My mother does not understand; she has aged, and sees the past as beautiful and lives it.
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She awaited my homecoming from Munich every year, where I settled for ten years. The thing that makes me come back to my homeland is a great love; this great love is the strands of feelings which enable me to breathe; and my mother is their embodiment.
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My mother became sick, I returned to the valley from Munich; after two days she died on the same carpet she wove decades ago, before she was married to my father; on the same carpet my father died and on the same carpet I was born. The neighbours carried her to the graveyard at the top of a hill. I cried for a long time; I read Sûrah of the Qur-an for the penultimate branch of my family tree. I felt my return ticket to Munich in my pocket and I walked down the hill by myself feeling that my feet were glued to the ground.
From „The King of the Dead an other Libyan tales“, Tripolis 1982.